It’s a hazy, warm August day, the air smelling of salt. A rainbow halo circles the sun, formed from the combination of sunlight and wildfire smoke drifting in from—of all places—Newfoundland. I haul my blow-up paddleboard into the murky waters of the Northwest Arm. It’s cold, but manageable. This stretch of water eventually leads to the end of the Halifax peninsula and onto the Atlantic Ocean. It’s a calm day, and the current pulls the board slightly off-course. As I paddle down the arm, I alternate between sitting and standing. Friendly boaters pass by on all sides, waving, and I wave back, smiling. One man on a sailboat gestures to a small, round object floating in the water. Dark, expressive eyes framed with long eyelashes look around in interest. The harbour seal spots my board, blinks, and then quickly disappears under the surface. It resurfaces a few times as I paddle along, curious but distant. At some point, I drop a small anchor in order to rest, floating, looking up at the strange pale sky. Eventually, it is time to turn around. I sigh. Weekends are far too short.

I spend the week working remotely from a small, box-like room in one of the Dalhousie residences. I have two fans running at all times, but sweat still pours down my back. The refreshing view of the harbour from my window does nothing to cool me off, though I do enjoy watching the variety of boats float by. There are moments that break up the monotonous work days: a series of horn blasts plays in a kind of melody, inadvertently putting a meeting on hold; a tall white multi-storey building detaches itself from the harbour front and floats away—an incognito cruise ship.

I spend most of my evenings walking the boardwalk along the harbour. The docks are relatively empty after the August long weekend. One lone sailboat-style yacht remains docked, its wooden floors gleaming in the lamplight, the white sock-footed staff all dressed in matching t-shirts and pants. Half-full tourist boats float past, music blaring and multi-colored lights flashing. All along the boardwalk, I catch snippets of conversation revolving around the unexpected heatwave in the East. Lots of sighs and shaking of heads. I check the forecast on my phone; only hot, sunny days ahead.

One night, I attend a show at Neptune Theater, in the heart of the downtown district. A woman sits beside me and strikes up a conversation so easily that I cannot help but be impressed. Where was I from? Why was I visiting? What have I seen in Halifax so far? I mention my idea of attending a ‘Shakespeare by the Sea’ play, which is performed in the historic Point Pleasant Park and uses some of the historic monuments as a kind of backdrop.

“I’m not sure if it’s running,” she confesses. “All the parks are closed because of the wildfires.”

It turns out that it is the only park-based event allowed to run during this time of caution and unease. I attend it happily, though I am underdressed for the cool evening; as the last bows hit the stage, I am shivering from the damp. And thus my week in Halifax comes to an end.

Newfoundland is in an utter state of confusion when I arrive. The plane lands just fine, but driving is a whole other ballgame. Wildfires have ravaged several areas around St John’s, and entire sections of the main highway are completely closed. My kindly relatives pick me up, even though it’s an evening flight, and the highway detour is long. Throughout the week, they watch the news with intensity, volume high. When we go out for a drive, we see helicopters in the distance, raining buckets of water on flames.

All my plans have to change; there is no hiking, no visiting my cousin, who is a paramedic in St John’s. I work steady days, and walk some of the coastal roads in the evenings. The sun is a sad, dull blotch in the sky. The scent of smoke is so strong that any thought of going for a run is out of the question. The green, wild Newfoundland I know from the past is now restricted, and rightly so; the East is simply not as equipped as the West to handle this kind of heat and flame. I spend the evenings playing backgammon or re-learning how to play Forty-Fives, a local card game with mind-bending rules that only seem to make sense to proper Newfies.

“Some people here live in family homes,” one of my relatives says over a game of backgammon one night. We had spent the afternoon blueberry picking in a nearby field, and were enjoying the fruit of our effort along with a bottle of Black Horse beer. “If they lose their home, they’ll lose everything.”

Back on the mainland, the heat wave continues, scorching hot in my basic black sedan. The wind whips through the open windows as I drive homeward, humid and smelling of smoke. I cross the bridge from Halifax to mainland Nova Scotia, my arm hanging out of the window, fingers stretched long, my hand pushing against the wall of hot air. Every single overpass on the highway is filled with firetrucks, police cars, and ambulances. Uniformed figures stand next to their vehicles. From the highway, various drivers honk their horns and wave as they pass by. The first responders wave back, smiling, ready.

When I close my eyes and think about last summer, I see myself lying diagonally across the back of a rented Bronco, attempting to sleep while sweating inside a too-warm sleeping bag.

It’s June in the Yukon, and the sun burns bright and long, well past any semblance of bedtime. The animals are certainly awake. I can hear bird song from the cracked windows of the car, which I’ve artfully covered with special bug nets for the occasion. It isn’t just small animals that are awake at all times; I’ve seen several clusters of black bears eating dandelions on the side of the road, a mother moose with her calf down near Carcross, and one lone grizzly, walking in the center of the road up on the Hanes Highway, far above the treeline. These larger creatures are my chief concern and the main reason why I decided to sleep in the back of an SUV rather than inside a tent. That being said, I have not seen a single bear in any of the campsites thus far; Yukoners are responsible campers and are very careful with their food.

I manage to catch a few hours of sleep, with the help of a sleep mask and some earplugs. I wake up early anyway (I’m not a morning person, but the sun really does mess with circadian rhythm) and head to my main destination of the day: Kluane National Park.

The drive is devastatingly beautiful, particularly the part through Destruction Bay. Sand blows along the dried river bed, gathering in wave-shaped dunes. I squint, hunched over the wheel, as the Bronco flies through sand clouds. It’s a holiday Monday in the Yukon so the tourist center is (unfortunately) closed, but I already have the trail map downloaded on my phone. I grab the tourist pamphlet just in case; there’s an emergency number listed on it to call. I laugh. There’s no service here anyway, how on earth could I call someone for help?

The hike up Sheep’s Creek, one of the main trails, is a steep one. The elevation gain is about 1100 meters. It’s one of the steepest day hikes I’ve done, but I feel ready for it; I’ve been hiking for a few weeks now. The first bit of the trail is flat and calm—until a fat pheasant explodes out of the bush in front of me, along with half a dozen chicks. They scramble across the path into the bushes, peeping, and the mother spreads its wings and rushes towards me, zigzagging along the path. I run backwards, my hiking poles flailing, until she launches herself off the ground and lands on a low branch, squawking. I slink past, looking sheepish—so much for being a bold adventurer.

The entrance of the trail is marked with a commemorative plaque.

“It’s fine,” I say out loud, with false reassurance. I touch the bear spray I am carrying in the side pouch of my bag for comfort. “There will be other people on the trail. It’s a holiday!”

Sadly, this is not the case. The trail is perfectly empty—every hiker’s dream, but not mine. I sing, clap, and talk myself through the hike, and occasionally yell, “No bears allowed!” while rounding the switchbacks. I use my poles to test the scat I find to ensure it is not fresh; the Yukon is the only place I’ve hiked where I’ve had to track scat, paw, and claw marks for safety. (I know that sounds badass, but it was fairly terrifying at first.) At this point in my trip it feels almost normal. Luckily for me, there are no fresh signs of bears—or any other animals—on this hike.

The trail is steep and mostly unshaded. The sun is scorching, even this far north; in the summertime, the Arctic is essentially a desert. I’m consuming water much faster than I had planned, even though I’m carrying roughly three and a half litres with me. I take a break at a viewpoint for an apple, which helps. The smoke from the wildfires is not so bad today, and I can see snowy peaks in the distance. Wildfires are common in this part of Canada; this far north, they are usually caused by lightning. The smoke can drift in from hours away—visibility is a game of wind direction, of chance. The threat of smoke might account for the lack of hikers on the trail.

Finally, I break above the tree line. Now that I have better visibility, I relax a little. No, I cannot outrun a bear—I’ve seen a grizzly run uphill in Glacier National Park in British Columbia, and let me tell you, there is absolutely no outrunning that thing—but at least now I can see one coming and plan for my demise. Step by step, I ascend the final part of the hike, panting. It’s so steep that I’m almost crawling up it. There are little fist-sized holes speckled along the sides of the path, and marmots—or perhaps just a single marmot—pop in and out of them as I pass, squealing in warning.

“Just passing by,” I tell them/it, doing my best not to step on their home. My feet skid and slide on the sandy slope, and I fall to my knees several times, until finally, finally, I reach the top.

The view of Destruction Bay is breathtaking. Kaskawulsh Glacier cascades down the riverbed, hazy in the smoky conditions. Snowy peaks rise sharply above it, piercing the blue sky. Gusts of sand blow across the bay and trails of thin glacier melt wind through it, heedless of direction. The scene is framed on either side with hilly green hills, almost completely devoid of trees. I feel a pull, a longing, to hike even higher, to see even more, but the hike back would be too long, and my legs are already tired. I lie down instead, almost vertical on the slope, and bask in the warm sunshine. I spend an hour there, eating my lunch and relaxing, to the point where I almost fall asleep. The threat of bears is the only thing that keeps me awake.

In the distance, I see another lone hiker, likely climbing up for the late sunset. We wave at each other, and relief courses through me, releasing tension that I didn’t know I was carrying. Perhaps they feel as relieved as I do. Checking my phone, I realize that it is already evening. I haul myself up, ready to begin my descent. I feel an infinite sense of wonder, satisfaction, and weariness—a combination that, for me, only comes from long trails like this. I take a step, then another, tracking my own prints in the dirt. The trail snakes on and on in the distance, and the proud midnight sun shines on, relentless.

My alarm goes off, blaring in the dark hours of the early morning. I snooze it with a groan, and fall back asleep. Ten-plus snoozed alarms later and I am now officially running late. I curse the size of the city, the airlines, and most of all myself for ever having thought that a 6 am flight was an acceptable option. The only positive thing is that traffic has yet to begin at such an inhumane hour. I arrive at the airport exactly two hours ahead, which is perfect for a domestic flight (most flights from here pass through Toronto or Montreal first) but alas, it is snowing outside, and the flight is delayed. I curse myself for not checking the flight status before leaving, but there’s nothing to be done except to continue through security. Onward.

The airport staff, yawning with sleep, search through bags with tired eyes. Nothing much seems to interest them, not even the occasional alarm. How must they feel, seeing excited travellers pass through the gates day after day, when they themselves stand in the exact same spot every morning, repeatedly reminding every other person to “Please take your laptop out of your bag”, and “All liquids must be in a small one-litre clear bag, thank you”? Luckily, the Ottawa airport has finally upgraded to new machines, so the only thing that must be removed are snow boots; as a result, the lineup runs faster than usual. (Thank you, oh technology gods!)

Travel is not always fun for the customer either. Sometimes it’s a requirement: a business trip, a compassionate flight. There are many reasons to travel. Fortunately, today I reside in the most common traveller category during a Canadian winter: a sunshine flight south to Mexico.

Breakfast options after security are sparse. I buy a sad croissant with a less-sad coffee, and a plastic water bottle, as I must have (unfortunately) left my reusable one at home. The cost of the bill is outrageous, but I ignore the numbers. It’s too early to do math anyway, and the thought of warm sunshine after weeks of -20 deg C temperatures fills my head with a sound somewhere between a church choir and a symphonic metal band—it blocks out any passing negative thought. The flight to Toronto is small and packed to the brim with what appear to be business travellers; the overhead bins are nearly overflowing by the time my seating zone is called. An unimpressed flight attendant shoves my carpet bag between two comically oversized carry-on suitcases and snaps the bin shut. I collapse into my seat, grateful that there are no more delays.

The Toronto airport has better food and seating options, but it is much louder, thrumming with chatter and fan noise. My earplugs only moderately soften the din. I check my phone—three hours to go until my flight. I watch the airplanes slide in and out of view through the snowy landscape. I smile. All that’s left now is to wait.

These past few months of movement have been dizzying, and I am ready for a break. They say that travel can’t solve all your problems, but there is something to be said for taking a break from the stress of everyday life. I am very interested in being in a place where the wind doesn’t hurt my face. Would you like to follow me on this trip? The airplane is only half full, but not everyone has the time, money, or desire to travel. But a break from life can be as simple as having a slow, quiet cup of tea and reading a short article like this one, for just a few minutes in the day.

The plane slides into the air, buffeted by strong gusts of wind. The checkered snowy landscape fades beneath puffy, whipped-cream clouds. The sun shines through the windows, blinding and beautiful.

See you soon,

Alexa